Vomit #97

Knowing that I am autistic has helped me understand my actions and behaviours for the first time, clearly Being undiagnosed (still) and struggling massively with both mental and physical health growing up and still now I’ve done/said alot of things that… Aren’t me Or don’t feel like who I thought I knew myself as I’ve

Vomit #95?

It’s evident I need a therapist or counselling right now. I tried all of last year, really hard, to work with Cardiff mental health team. They only wanted to address my eating disorder and not childhood trauma even though this is what I was mainly struggling with. That and anxiety Anyways I got 3/4 ish

vomit #67

you can’t walk out on me, then get pissed when i don’t follow you.

Vomit #93

So I rang my dad the other day. It’s been almost a year since we last talked. My brother isn’t living with him anymore and I felt anxious for his mental state. These times are tough for him, the holidays and his birthday soon. I was worried he’d started drinking again, he had been an

A tale of two parents

My folks had a relationship like a bar of soap The more you use it the thinner it gets. After they broke up they both leaned on me the middle child, their “daughter”. I knew my mum would need me Over the years I understood our relationship. She needed me, the girl, to confide in.

Vomit #88

I had to pee in tubs and containers at night as a child for a really long time. I’m not sure when it started. I was too scared to leave my room at night, afraid of making too much noise… That I would awaken my folks and they would punish me. I realised that this

vomit #28

(saved in my drafts from 2016) when i think of what they did, it takes me a minute to quite believe it. then i feel sick and….confused Angry so fucking angry i cant think of anything else and everything i do its just a fucking waste of time cuz why even bother if shit like

Vomit #86

So I live in South Wales, we’ve been on and off local lockdown but as of 2 days ago are now in a 17 day strick Wales wide lockdown. That, from what I can gather, is until further notice. I’ve been using alot more social media than I’m used to.. Trying to be kind and

vomit #70

the possibility of being homeless is on the table..or i could run away tonight and sleep on my friends floor till i find a place if they would have me. i would have to leave everything here and take only what i need and fully rebuild my life..which is a heck of effort but at

vomit #58

every fucking move i make, every fucking word i say. why do i always get questioned by you